MYSTERY MASTERY
I can feel an expansion coming on.
At the top of this summer, probably around late May/early June, I was gently initiated into the deepest School of Mystery I have yet played with.
I say gently because Mystery is so loving that she waited until I was structured enough to handle this curriculum and she has steadfastly upped the ante just as I got comfortable in the previous iteration.
She overtook big areas of my life. Business, family, home, consolidated stories-I-told-myself, money, ancient contracts, and much more.
She took things, she paused things and she told me NOTHING.
Lucky for me the wind whispered, Just wait. The corners of my house said, Don’t push. My Oleander just cooed and asked me to do the same.
It wasn’t like I had a choice.
The stages, for me, have gone from curious dismay to frightening confusion to truly burning fear to humbled calm to embracing the “not knowing” as a loving & nurturing cauldron of Creation.
(And I still sometimes have to furiously hold myself to not to yell
“But WHAT am I waiting for!? I want to know now now now!!)
I learned how to be a storm.
My advisors in this fertile darkness have been openness, inquiry and some very well versed teachers.
Openness and inquiry have also been moonlighting as harbingers of vaster levels of capacity and a deeper understanding of trust. Not breadcrumbs.
Trust, Mystery’s currency, is enjoying a rich purification in my world while catalyzing a secret sort of ‘knowing’
that
the
deeper
I
allow,
the more I am taken care of.
So, I’m all in.
I’m devoted.
This level of devotion is not for the faint hearted. It doesn’t work if you grab. It doesn’t work if you push. You can’t rush to resolve.
It is the antithesis of a hustle.
It’s very very deep breaths.
I’m still here in it, maybe deeper than before. My clients seem to be in it too. My practitioners are in it.
My friends are in it.
So, if you too have been initiated into any level of The Mystery, I just wanted to say,
“Hello, the tide always comes back in”
Be opened by this moment.
Enjoy the space.
Real answers come when they’re ready and when you’re ready to hold them.
I will be teaching a private Mystery Mastery class very soon, if you feel you have been initiated please feel invited to sign up to the Mystery mailing list to receive everything you need to know to participate.
Prices and timings to be revealed.
Hi, I’m Kristen Nicole Grove, I spring up from nothing and will one day return to nothing.
But in the meantime, I’ve had countless encounters with the multidimensions. I’ve learned how to navigate an often incessant 'reporting-from-the-future' claircognizance. I’ve been held and guided by wonderful mentors and teachers. I’ve deeply engaged in pleasure and fun and I’ve also been tirelessly humbled by emptying pain, death and loss.
A little background:
I first arrived in Europe 25 years ago to become a mosaic artist. After finishing my degrees in Art History and Italian I went to a bizantine academy to learn ancient mosaic technique. I started apprenticing in a small, windowless studio in Ravenna, Italy and spent my days cutting chunks of marble into little perfect squares. I then had to put those marble squares together, one by one, following a pattern and a color scheme so that they became a complete picture and story.
My life has continued to mirror and repeat that process. I continue to spend time, focus and precision on refining coarse life curricula so that I can piece the lessons together in an artful way to see the bigger picture.
So I can turn these pieces of learning into knowledge.
I was not destined to that little studio. From there I was called, by way of my best friend, to participate in the castings for on-screen talent for Italian MTV. I loved music and I loved my friend so I accepted the invite.
We went at it with a definitive dose of silliness, joy and a we’ll-see-where-this-takes- us attitude.
We weren't very attached to the outcome, we were courting a major dose of innocence and having fun just playing VJ while we created our demo reel.
After watching our very homemade reel, we were invited to an official tryout. At the studios we met with real VJ material: flashy, beautiful, cosmopolitan men and women… actors and models who knew what it felt like to talk to a camera. My windowless studio laughed at my level of provinciality. We were feeling small and under-equipped but we were also determined to follow through and make fun memories. We leaned into the force of our connection.
After about a month of call-backs the casting crew had stopped calling and I decided to leave Italy and move to NYC.
It turned out that this first conscious act of enjoyment+doing our best+letting go conspired to land us the job! MTV called me back from NYC and for the following 10 years we travelled around the world interviewing rockstars and hosting awards shows and live concerts.
While I was working for MTV in Europe I fell in love and married a man from Argentina (still love him, no longer together, soul contract completed) and learned to speak Spanish well enough that I began working as a VJ for MTV Latin America.
In the interim I also began, what would end up, a 15 year run hosting a live radio show for the number 1 national radio station in Italy.
For as exciting as it sounds, and it was exciting in many aspects, it was also a serious baptism-by-fire to learn how to become Energetically Sovereign, aka energetically full, protected and unbotherable/unflusterable/unfuckwithable.
I was having a very hard time and it felt like I was having mini breakdowns every day. Often, when I arrived home, I would fall to the floor and cry the moment I was inside the doorway - I couldn’t even make it past the entrance.
As I cried I would wonder if I was crazy because I couldn’t really put my finger on why I was so tapped out. I didn't know why I was feeling like such a wreck. I never drank, I did no drugs, (I did question if I was burning out on chocolate and croissants... and I probably was) but I was constantly tapping out and overloading my nervous system.
Because, when you're in the public eye, when your 'person' is presenting in front of tens of thousands of people, when your face is on television all day, when you're being excitingly chased down the street, you really have to learn quickly what belongs to you and what belongs to others.
This was my initiation. I had to learn how to clear my energy field and then how to structure it so that I could remain safe and sovereign in volatile environments ...and when I say volatile, I mean 'energetically volatile' because even something fun and joyful can still be volatile.
Navigating different cultures, different expectations, discovering fame and the folly that surrounds it gave me quite a lot of experience in the sequencing and mechanics of energy. Because, when you're in the public eye, when your 'person' is presenting in front of tens of thousands of people, when your face is on television all day, when you're being excitingly chased down the street, you have to learn very quickly what belongs to you and what belongs to others.
Slowly, I learned how to clear and reorganise my energy. I learned how to calm my nervous system by myself. From there, thanks to many teachers along the way (not all teaching from the same dimension), I learned how to encode my field and make a decision about the quality, clarity and purity of the field I carry through the world.
I now approach my everyday with attention to the energetic details in each situation. The practice of being human is laden with ritual and it also keeps me on my toes. Life is my practice and my religion is a regulated nervous system and a purified energy field.
